High Lama ~ It is the entire meaning and purpose of Shangri-La. It came to me in a vision, long, long ago. I saw all the nations strengthening, not in wisdom, but in the vulgar passions and the will to destroy. I saw the machine power multiplying, until a single weaponed man might match a whole army. I foresaw a time when man, exalting in the technique of murder, would rage so hotly over the world, that every book, every treasure, would be doomed to destruction. This vision was so vivid and so moving, that I determined to gather together all things of beauty and of culture that I could, and preserve them here, against the doom toward which the world is rushing. Look at the world today. Is there anything more pitiful? What madness there is! What blindness! What unintelligent leadership! A scurrying mass of bewildered humanity, crashing headlong against each other, propelled by an orgy of greed and brutality. A time must come my friend, when this orgy will spend itself. When brutality and the lust for power must perish by its own sword. Against that time, is why I avoided death, and am here. And why you were brought here. For when that day comes, the world must begin to look for a new life. And it is our hope that they may find it here. For here, we shall be with their books and their music, and a way of life based on one simple rule: Be Kind! When that day comes, it is our hope that the brotherly love of Shangri-La will spread throughout the world. Yes, my son; When the strong have devoured each other, the Christian ethic may at last be fulfilled and the meek shall inherit the earth. Lost Horizon
This one book made such an impact on my long ago young life. Since my first reading of said book and the movies that followed, I have strived and failed many times, to live up to those two simple words. Be kind!
I forgot those two simple words two weeks ago. The first week was one of heartbreak, betrayal, anger, turmoil, and, and, well you get the picture. I lashed out at two people who may have deserved it at the time, but what I should have done is fell silent and tried to sort things out on my own. I even went so far as to level my beloved Lost Horizon hoping that would make me feel better. It didn’t. All that work, all that love put into creating my partner’s and my little piece of Shangri-la, gone in a keystroke, because I was angry, hurt, disillusioned.
This past week has been one of rediscovery, healing and above all a most welcome silence. What I discovered is maybe, just maybe, I may have played a part in what transpired the week before, however indirectly that may have been. Maybe my lack of awareness or my choice to ignore it contributed as well. I am not sure I will be that self-assured again.
What I do know is that I will not let the feelings I felt the first week define me. Those feelings will just eat at you until you realize one day the person in the mirror looking back at you is a complete stranger. I will not become inhumane and will take that first step forward.
That first step for me is forgiveness. I chose to forgive myself and those that did me wrong. I am letting go of the heartbreak, betrayal, anger and turmoil and moving forward. Forever forward.
Working on rebuilding Lost Horizon I have come to the realization of what I want my Second Life to be; what I have always wanted it to be. I am going to take back my dream. I will have that special someone to share my Second Life with. Together we will face whatever SL throws our way and we will be a force to be reckoned with.
My wish for you is that you find the Second Life you have been dreaming of. What are you waiting for? Go make it happen! But remember, above all else…Be Kind.
To my sis Wendz: Thank you for doing what I could not, but I am taking it from here now. I found my big girl panties tucked away in a corner of my mess of a closet and put them on. Oh, and I changed my clothes finally 🙂 Now you don’t have to smell me all the way across the grid 😛 Geesh the stench!!!
To Anna (my littlest sis): Hugs you so tight for all your kind words and encouragement. I love you so much.
To Will & Petal, Beth & Pirate: Thank you dearest friends for checking up on me. I will never forget your kind words and loving support.
To Grey: My friend and protector if not for you I could not have stayed in Second Life in those early days. You have come to my rescue on more than one occasion. I am afraid your SL has suffered because of my uncanny ability to get into trouble. I love you dear friend and from this day forward do not worry about me. This Cougar is gonna be just fine. Now go find your Second Life. Make it what ever you want it to be.
This particular build took me three days to complete. This is my temporary home, a place to contemplate and future guest quarters. Everything seem to fall into place when I found this sweet little Japanese studio kichijo 145P by :Ryu. On this side of Lost Horizon I have used Heart Garden and Botanical for my landscaping needs. Simplistic in design, calm surroundings, the sound of birds and insects buzzing about and water lapping at the shore is what I was
going longing for. A place to truly relax and just reflect.
While Lost Horizon is closed to the public for now: for those bloggers that would like to visit you can message me in world (Cougar Sangria), request safe passage and I will add you. I will be the easy one to spot…covered in dirt 🙂
I haven’t shopped for any clothes or accessories for 2 weeks now and I feel so out of the loop. I intend to work my way back in slowly, posting mostly the progress of my landscaping and decorating. For now I am focusing my attention on me, what I want, and my beloved Lost Horizon. TWMA 🙂